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The girl who was called by name turned around and smiled at him, saying: "Do you think I am despicable? Let me tell you, there are even more despicable ones..."

His expressionless face appeared extremely cruel and heartless: "You are right, what qualifications do I have to criticize you? Am I not also a scoundrel myself?"

I lay on the bed with a cry of lamentation

I do not regret it, she leaned in and gently kissed Du Xun's face, tears quickly filled her eyes

She casually remarked, "I grew up in a coastal city, and people there eat mustard like this, it's nothing."

As the morning sunlight streamed into the room through the gap in the curtains, Junliang opened her eyes and saw Du Xun still sleeping beside her

Chen Zhiqing's true panic began at this moment, as she realized that when Du Xun treated her with the same attitude he had towards others, everything had truly reached an irretrievable point. She stared blankly at Du Xun's indifferent face, and suddenly, all the prepared, sharp words she had intended to use to mock him and Jun Liang felt like a fishbone stuck in her throat, unable to swallow or spit out

Chen Zhiqing's gaze remained fixed on the cement floor six stories below: "Du Xun, tell me, is it better for the head to hit the ground first, or the feet?"

Du Xun chased for a few steps but could not catch up. It was no use, so he turned back to look at Jun Liang. Her eyes were brimming with tears, yet she did not cry out.

Will I still be able to see that refreshing smile, like a flower, in the future? If I can no longer see it, how much responsibility will I have to bear? Du Xun couldn't help but feel a pang in her heart.

The silent phone finally rang at this moment, and I couldn't even be bothered to look at the name before pressing the answer button. In that long-awaited voice, I could hear no trace of remorse: "Chuwi, I'm back, let's go out for dinner."

The first time I smoked in front of Yuan Zuyu, a glimmer of surprise flashed in his eyes, but he quickly returned to a demeanor of indifference: "The first time I saw you, I didn't think you were the type of well-behaved girl, and indeed!"

I will never allow others to take advantage of me and then casually cast me aside without a second thought

At this moment, Du Xun instead became calm.

The old six-story building is no longer common in this city. Chen Zhiqing sat on the railing and called Du Xun, speaking succinctly: "If you don't come to see me now, don't ever think about seeing me again in the future"

I was stunned, vaguely recalling that this sentence should have been "I don't know when I will meet the person I like." Looking at Tang Yuanyuan's straight back, I must say, she is indeed very realistic

As if it were some form of psychological suggestion, she reiterated it with greater emphasis.

The dim light casts our shadows on the mottled wall, faintly and gloomily, resembling silhouettes from a black-and-white silent film, a simple and blurred outline

It seems that there are countless metallic buzzing sounds in my head, which soon turn into a tremendous roar

I suddenly feel like vomiting," I said to Yuan Zuyu

I was inexplicably enveloped by an emotion called "frustration," going to class every day with my textbooks in hand, feeling listless, and returning to the dormitory in the same state. In the midst of this, my mother called me once, and we both hummed and hawed without getting to the bottom of it.

Unknowingly, the sky has darkened

In the midst of his breakdown, Du Xun was also extremely angry about this matter, and the various indescribable emotions mixed together caused him to speak without thinking: "Chen Zhiqing, where did you learn such despicable tactics?!"

Apologizing with these three words, Du Xun has said them so many times that he no longer wishes to repeat them. However, what else can he say besides these three words?

Can you pretend as if nothing has happened and remain so composed? Can you joke around as lightly as you did before coming here?

Chen Zhiqing returned home, and her parents were already asleep. She tiptoed into her room, holding the enormous Garfield on her bed, crying inconsolably.

When Yuan Zuyue appeared before me, he was panting heavily, and it took him two or three minutes to catch his breath. He then immediately asked me, "What happened to you? You were crying so much on the phone that I thought you had been robbed!"

The image of Song Chuwei's eyes emerges in my mind, as clear as the pool water of this ancient town

Shen Yan smiled and said, "Perhaps you are right... By the way, why are you alone? Where is Jun Liang?"

Upon returning to the room, Lin Muse had already fallen asleep, with one snow-white arm still exposed. Gu Ciyuan could not help but cover her with the blanket.

Gu Ci Yuan returned three days later. During these three days, my life at school felt like that of a living corpse.

Indeed, I have already expressed my apologies. The things I wish to do to make amends, you do not give me the opportunity for. What else can I do? I can only respect your choice. If you wish to jump, then jump!

"Hmm? What is it? It wouldn't be too late to express your longing in person." Gu Ciyuan was still laughing loudly on the other end of the phone.

Until her throat became hoarse, until she had no extra strength left, Chen Zhiqing finally picked up the bag from the ground, hailed a taxi, and left in a cloud of dust

"What else is there to discuss?" she replied with a smile, her tone unmistakably mocking.

Upon opening my personal space, intending to casually jot down a diary entry, I unexpectedly noticed a notification about a friend's update, indicating that a certain individual had uploaded dozens of new photos to their album

Du Xun was momentarily at a loss for words, while Chen Zhiqing continued speaking to herself: "Longing for the human heart is not like water, Du Xun, you know what this saying means, right... You are so clever, of course you know... But have you ever thought that one day I would use this saying to refer to you"

After Junliang was harshly slapped by Chen Zhiqing, she did not turn her face for a long time. The weight of that slap was known to the three people present; Junliang felt as if her face was about to explode, with a buzzing sound echoing in her ears. However, the most unbearable part was not the physical pain, but the psychological humiliation.

What has caused everything to become like this? Du Xun dared not think, nor did he wish to think; he could only plead with her: "Zhi Qing, please don't do this, come down, and let's talk slowly"

I trembled as I looked at him, unable to articulate my words clearly. He anxiously gazed at me for a long time, and ultimately, he could not be bothered to say anything, taking my hand and walking away.

She said something unrelated: "Do you know why I put on makeup every day? Because I never know when I might encounter someone who could change the course of my life"

It is I, Song Chuwei, who is insufficiently worldly; it is I, Song Chuwei, who is too immature. I lean against the window, thinking sadly.

I never knew I had so many tears to shed, and I never imagined that the person I cared about the most would stab me in the heart.

At that moment, Shen Yan's phone call came in: "Chuwu, I think I saw you just now when you passed by, is that right?"

How important is love

I turned my head and looked at him coldly. At that moment, the former Song Chuwei, who once held the banner of rebellion high, returned. She was always so ungrateful towards kind advice: "What a joke, who do you think you are to me? Would I get angry because of what you said?"

Chen Zhiqing felt cold in her hands and feet, her heart filled with a sense of helpless sorrow and indignation at her own powerlessness

Jun Liang did not seek me out either, and I am unaware of the storm they must face with Du Xun, of course, I am also too indifferent to know

After toiling until late at night, they finally went to the hotel to rest. Junliang was clearly exhausted. After taking a shower, he regained a bit of energy. Upon opening the bathroom door, he saw Du Xun standing by the window, his back filled with loneliness

This is the place where Chen Zhiqing lived during her childhood. A few years ago, when they had just started their relationship, Chen Zhiqing insisted on bringing him here, saying that she wanted him to understand her past

Du Xun felt as if his soul was, at that moment, reduced to ashes and smoke

After a few seconds of being stunned, Chen Zhiqing began to cry and laugh at the same time

In fact, I feel that I have asked a pointless question; having money and having taste are completely two different matters. Just by observing Shen Yan's daily behavior and her attire, it is evident that she is certainly the type of girl who lives quite well

That's right, Gu Ciyuan, we are breaking up

Du Xun walked over, sat down by the bed, and looked down at her

The lights in the corridor flicker on, and looking from one end to the other resembles an increasingly blurred tunnel

Amidst the lingering curses of the taxi driver, an ominous premonition surged within Du Xun's heart

In those brief seconds, did you ever feel a twinge of regret

What she obtained was not mere luck; when she made the decision the night before to say, "I do not want to go back," she had already anticipated everything, and all matters were within her expectations

All the emotions that once existed have been sacrificed in this manner, much like the stark white bones on the battlefield buried beneath the sand and dust. Who will still remember those memories that, though not stirring to the heart, are nonetheless deeply etched in the mind

Du Xun, I love you

He knows that he is not capable of it. Some people are naturally adept at navigating both sides, speaking lies without a change in expression or a flutter of the heart. However, he does not belong to that category of individuals.

In the empty corridor at midnight, Gu Ci Yuan tilted his head and exhaled a large puff of smoke. The phone battery was fully charged, but at this moment, what could he say if he called? What could he possibly say?

Going to a buffet when feeling down is a great way to vent. Shen Yan and I stood for a long time with our plates. I piled on a lot of mousse cake, Black Forest cake, and my favorite matcha cake.

She smiled, revealing her snow-white teeth, laughing nonchalantly, without even glancing at him.

Tang Yuanyuan's recent movements have become increasingly mysterious, with a smile that is almost imperceptible on her face and a sparkle in her eyes that seems to conspire about something very important. However, when I truly ask her, she says nothing at all

In the gaze of Du Xun filled with doubt, Jun Liang smiled and finished the sentence that she had previously been too shy to say

He has a pair of long hands that are rare among boys, with palms that are dry yet warm. I did not react immediately; instead, I waited for a moment before pretending to wipe my tears and subtly withdrew my hand.

She cried out with a heart-wrenching voice, "I hate you all, I hate you all, I hate you all..." In the quiet of the night, her accusations seemed to envelop Du Xun and Jun Liang like a nightmare.

Like a tightly stretched string finally breaking under excessive force, Du Xun curled up, clutching his head as if his soul had scattered, and cried out in pain: "Chen Zhiqing!"

You subconsciously recalled the incident with your boyfriend last time, you detest infidelity and thus vent your anger on your friends, whereas in reality, they are not as heinous as you claim

At that time, how could one have imagined that the matters that began here would also have to conclude here

Matters of the heart are inherently about parting and reuniting; it could have ended amicably. Look at this road, who among us has not experienced heartbreak? It is that girl's extremism that has harmed herself

In this café called "Fei", I enjoyed the Mandheling recommended by Shen Yan, while Yuan Zuyu ordered nothing. He said, "Coffee is not suitable for someone like me, a member of the working class; I can just drink plain water."

I have yet to see Chuwei's sleeping posture," Gu Ciyuan was suddenly startled by this thought of his, and soon, the deep sense of guilt enveloped him once again.

Upon reflection, it seems that Tang Yuanyuan is indeed not at fault. Moreover, even after losing her loved ones, her eagerness to offer something in order to hold onto Du Xun tightly is not wrong either

In the dark and cramped room, I tightly embraced myself, trembling uncontrollably

But after Yuan Zuyu stopped and shouted a sentence at the back of my head, I also came to a halt

When I accompanied Junliang to the hospital, Chen Zhiqing's parents had not yet arrived, and Du Xun sat pale-faced on a chair, staring at the ceiling

The night was cool as water, and Du Xun softly said to Jun Liang: "You should sleep first"

Having just sent Du Xun to Jun Liang, I had no choice but to rush to meet Chen Zhiqing without stopping. Due to extreme anxiety and fatigue, I nearly collided with an oncoming taxi at a corner.

Love

She gently reached out her hand to trace Du Xun's eyebrows, reminding herself: where there is loss, there is gain

In her heart, there are some soft, kind, and humble things that are gradually dissipating like smoke and dust

Is it filthy... perhaps a little, but what right do you have to judge me

Du Xun received a call from Chen Zhiqing after sending Jun Liang back to school

With a snap, I closed the computer, feeling as if I were in an ice cellar.

I truly do not regret it

Of course, she did not know that at the same moment, her best friend at school was so worried about her not returning all night that she could not even eat breakfast

However, she stood still, not moving, and slowly uttered a sentence: "Du Xun... do you have your ID card with you... I... do not want to go back"

As night falls, the afternoon has surprisingly passed so quickly. I watch the afterglow of the sunset gradually disappear from the windowsill... Chen Zhiqing, what kind of feeling did you have when you jumped down from the sixth floor?

I stared at him wide-eyed; such remarks were merely his perspective as a fellow man viewing the issue from Du Xun's standpoint

Du Xun

It has finally been confirmed regarding certain matters that had previously been uncertain, and after this night, everything has finally settled. Junliang also felt a slight disdain for herself, but this feeling was fleeting.

As he reached the last step of the staircase, he heard a piercing scream: "Du Xun!"

Having said this, I decisively hung up the phone, not allowing him to say another word

The tender green wasabi on the sashimi makes me grimace just by looking at it, yet Shen Yan remains unfazed as he consumes it.

Du Xun climbed up to the sixth floor, panting heavily. He saw the lonely girl on the railing, her face marked by determination.

It seemed as if a flash of lightning had passed before my eyes; in an instant, all corners were illuminated. I stared blankly at Yuan Zuyu's lips as they opened and closed: "Think carefully, is it not as I have said?"

I will not let you off so easily ... ... " Even she herself did not realize how twisted and hideous her expression was when she said this.

Oh? This is the first time I have heard Shen Yan mention her past, and I am also a bit curious. "You are from a coastal city, so your family must be quite wealthy..."

It is only after certain truths are revealed that I will understand that the universe is indeed filled with metaphors. When I weep for Chen Zhiqing, how can it not also be tears shed for myself

However, when he finished his shower and came out, he saw that Junliang was still awake. The warm yellow light from the bedside lamp illuminated her sorrowful face, making her look like an old calendar picture.

Watching him turn and leave ahead of me, I clenched my fists in anger but did not know where to strike. If there had been a glass window nearby, I would have undoubtedly swung my fist at it without hesitation

He also looked at me coldly, and after a while, he said with a cold smile: "Yes, you are not anyone to me, goodbye"

However, the moment I laid eyes on Du Xun, I knew it was merely an illusion of mine

Chen Zhiqing's indifferent smile gradually faded, as if she could not believe that Du Xun would treat her this way. Her eyes were filled with disbelief: "Are you serious?"

I felt a chill all over my body and had to admit that he had a point.

But is there something wrong with reality? Does reality conflict with love?

I am truly so sad that I can hardly speak. I do not know who I can talk to about this matter. I am Junliang's best friend, and Du Xun is Gu Ciyuan's best friend. Both emotionally and logically, it seems I should not side with Chen Zhiqing.

I walked briskly, while Yuan Zuyu called my name many times from behind, but I resolutely refused to turn back.

She looked up from her busy schedule and glanced at me, asking meaningfully: "Did he tell you?"

I neither agree nor disagree; I understand the principle of being loyal to the entrusted matters of others. Thus, I quietly watched Tang Yuanyuan as she began to groom herself in front of the mirror again

I let out a snort from my nose, without slowing my pace.

After thinking for a long time, I still did not turn on the machine

He was originally someone who rarely smoked, and this cigarette was taken out from the pack by Lin Muse. The smile on her face as she lit it for him resembled that of a fragrant and juicy flower, filled with sinful allure

I paused for a moment, and Yuan Zuyu hesitantly asked me, "What is the more despicable thing she mentioned?"

Everything has changed, and nothing can return to the starting point. The wounds are being torn apart more and more, and the once close individuals are being pulled further apart by an unknown force

Sometimes I truly feel that there is nothing left to cherish in life

Junliang sat up and leaned over to embrace him, the faint fragrance of the shower gel wafting towards her.

Then, a dull sound of a heavy object falling to the ground was heard, and only the pigeons that suddenly took flight from the roof of the old house witnessed the girl's body leaping into the air, in an irresistibly resolute posture, suddenly landing!

Yuan Zuyue held my hand, which was trembling violently due to excitement

Shen Yan did not want the cake himself, perhaps due to concerns about calories. In fact, I am also afraid of gaining weight, but when my mood is at its lowest, I hardly care about such things!

It was a very strange expression, somewhat terrifying and also somewhat heart-wrenching. She had always given the impression of being a cultured and well-mannered young lady, and no one had ever seen her cry like this over anything before

Upon hearing this, Yuan Zuyu couldn't help but shiver, and the glass cup he was holding trembled as well, spilling some water out.

Why should I cry? I really cannot explain it clearly. Logically speaking, Chen Zhiqing is neither related to me nor a close acquaintance. Her misfortunes truly have nothing to do with me.

Jun Liang's action of running towards him was so natural as she shook me off, and I stood there foolishly watching them embrace tightly in front of me

I couldn't help but click in to take a look...

When Du Xun proposed to break up, she quietly tracked his phone, which is why she appeared at the cash register that night

Du Xun paused for a moment and then said: "I do not wish for this either, but now that it has come to this, I am powerless to change it. You may do as you wish."

The strong wind howled past, and in that fleeting moment, it seemed as though a barrier had risen between us, who were once so close. Tragically, neither I nor Yuan Zuyu had any intention of breaking down this barrier

Let us turn back time to the tug-of-war among three individuals the night before

It is best to discuss matters such as a breakup in person

In just a year or two, compared to the young girl who had once run out of the bar, smiling and asking him for his number, the current Su Junliang's eyes clearly reflected a certain depth known as weariness.

At that moment, her heart felt as if it had been struck violently by an invisible blunt instrument

Junliang ... ... something happened ... ... "I plucked the small strawberry from the cake and cut it in half with a knife, "His ex-girlfriend jumped off a building."

Is love more important than sitting inside a Porsche during a torrential downpour? Is love more important than a home when housing prices are skyrocketing? Is love more important than a table full of delicious food when you are starving? Is love more important than the ever-evolving high-end digital products? Is love more important than a bright future?

They stood on that street for a very long time, and no one spoke. Only the occasional honking of passing vehicles sounded abrupt and prolonged, desolate, like a sob.

I do not know why, under this yellow light, everyone's face appears to be so burdened with worries

After finishing her makeup, Tang Yuanyuan picked up her bag and left. Before she departed, she said to me very seriously: "It is evident that Liang Zheng is definitely not the person who can change the course of my life."

I do not know how long I have been sobbing, but I am aware that while I was buried in tears, the guests and waitstaff passing by in twos and threes cast curious glances at us

I am not sure whether the substance called nicotine in cigarettes truly has a calming effect, but the fact is that I am certain I am gradually regaining my composure

Recalling Liang Zheng's admonition, I cleared my throat and said, "Are you... going to break up with Liang Zheng?"

I squeezed out a smile: "It would be great if Li Lang likes you."

After Du Xun finished speaking, without waiting for Chen Zhiqing to say anything further, he turned around and went downstairs

The clamor of voices filled the air, the wailing of ambulances and police cars echoed, and in the distance, the sky rumbled with thunder one after another... At this moment, all objects capable of producing sound in the world resonated in unison...

Alright, I also have something to discuss with you

My tears fell in torrents, and Yuan Zuyue sat opposite me without asking a word. He could see that my emotions were difficult to calm down for the time being, and apart from patiently waiting, there was simply no other way.

However, unexpectedly, her expression quickly dimmed, as if there were some matters she was reluctant to mention, and she shifted the topic: "You should eat a bit more, at such a young age, gaining a little weight is not a problem. Unlike me, at this age, I no longer dare to stay up late, nor do I dare to eat too much. If I hadn't happened to run into you today, I would have just planned to buy a vegetable to boil and eat."

I could no longer endure the feeling of being watched by others, so I stopped my tears and raised my swollen eyes and reddened nose to say to Yuan Zuyu: "Let's change to another place"

Let that thing called fate arrange the future development of life

Yuan Zuyue had been silent for a long time, and after a very long while, he finally said: "Song Chuwei, I truly do not believe that their crimes are unforgivable"

Hmm? Du Xun waited for a long time but did not receive any further response. He thought Jun Liang was crying, but when he lifted her face, he found no signs of it.

As he descended the stairs, he felt an indescribable sense of relief in his heart. Perhaps everyone experiences such moments when they choose to leave things to fate in situations beyond their control

In the distance, it seems that ethereal singing can be heard on the night of the ancient town, as Gu Ciyuan stands in the corridor of the inn smoking a cigarette

He did not call me, nor did he send me any messages on QQ, and surprisingly, I managed to refrain from seeking him out for three whole days. Although I am well aware that this seemingly calm and composed approach is merely a preparation for a complete outburst.

Under the gaze of Yuan Zuyu, I laid bare everything I knew

What can cause someone who was once the most trusted to abandon their dignity and principles, defending another girl right in front of me? How unreliable is the human heart?

He said: "Song Chu Wei, you are just angry out of shame!"

Du Xun continued, "You hate me, I understand. You repeatedly say that you gave me your best years, but isn't this a mutual affair? Did I give you my years like a candle flickering in the wind? During those two years you spent abroad, didn't I go to see you? Didn't I make efforts to maintain this relationship?"

It is quite strange; there is a certain gritting of teeth in my voice, as if some form of "evil" inherent in human nature is beginning to manifest. My speech is rapid: "Do they really not fear retribution? Chen Zhiqing is still in the operating room, her life hanging in the balance, and they are actually embracing just a wall away? How could I have such friends!"

"That is not what I mean..." He waved his hand, "I am an objective observer; your attitude towards this matter is mixed with too much subjective intention. In other words, you are too immersed in the role."

Every time he sees me, Shen Yan instinctively asks about Jun Liang. When certain matters have not yet revealed their clues, I did not realize that his concern for Jun Liang was somewhat unusual, especially after such an incident occurred, I was even less inclined to think too much about it

Seeing Junliang run over and embrace Du Xun in front of everyone, and seeing Du Xun hold Junliang tightly as if he were holding the most precious treasure in the world... At that moment, I truly felt that the girl named Chen Zhiqing in the emergency room was not worth it

Since it is so boring, I will go to the internet café and log into QQ, where the "Important People" section is completely gray

Du Xun said softly, "Jun Liang, let me take you back."

But I just feel very sad, extremely sad

On the way to the hospital with Junliang, our hands were tightly clasped together, both of our palms sweating coldly. For a brief moment, I felt that the barrier that had previously separated us had vanished, and everything seemed to return to its original state.

It is truly laughable; why should I say so much to this person I have just met? Why should I confide my views to him? What I think is none of his business!

A series of rhetorical questions left Chen Zhiqing at a loss, with no response for a long time